Hiatus times infinity

Jeez what a slacker I am. Nothing but emptiness. I am 40 now and as fat as I was when I was 39. I so badly want to loose weight but dot really want to do anything about it any more. I mean how hard is it to be skinny? Hard in my case. I will try to at least do a weekly posting / entry to help me stay on track. Ugh. What a nightmare my body has become. My feet hurt so much every day from my 294 heavily resting on bones not made for that. I need to do yoga so badly that my tendons are just screaming for it. But it always comes down to...I think there is never enough time in the day. Which I know is a lie. An hour. Really Maria? You can't spend an hour to make it better? Maybe today will be the day I just suck it up and just try. I want but I am lazy. Good grief I make myself sick